School will start in two weeks.
That means volunteering starts soon, very soon.
I love to help out my children's school.
I do.
I like to be involved, to know who my children spend their time with, to make their education better.
I know the school cannot function without volunteers.
I know I'm privileged to be able to give my time.
I know this. I believe this.
I'm just not excited to do it this year.
I feel like I want to drag my feet,
like I need to hurry up my projects here
because once school starts up again my time will be consumed.
I know that once I'm in the middle of the activities I help with I'll be happy and excited..
but..
but..
Wait a minute.
I know this feeling;
the "Crap, I don't want to go back, but I'll be happy once I'm there" feeling.
This is how I used to feel about work.
As in paid, forty hour a week work with bennies...
What does it mean when volunteering feels more like work than the stuff I actually get paid for?